My Curious Existence

I can't begin to tell you all how great I feel. I'm a long way from my weight goal, but the journey getting there is becoming fun! I've tried a few diets all were emotional rollercoasters that left me feeling like a failure. I saw my future of heart disease and forever feeling weak and useless and started to just let it come. It's funny how I can tell myself, I'm going to have health issues and it doesn't seem to click or even register. However, to have a doctor tell me, I'm pre-diabetic and then it just clicks. Maybe not right away. But I realized, I haven't had children yet, I'm having trouble moving and it's only going to get worse if I don't change something. How am I going to keep up with my kids, share what I love with them, if I can't even do those things myself? SO, thus began my journey, for real this time! I started with a meal plan. Arbonne Nutrition, this is the healthiest i've ever eaten. But, it was maintainable and I ...

I've just gotten back into rock climbing. I use to climb all of the time, it was great! I love the feeling of conquering a route. Feeling the strength and fatigue in my hands and arms. Feeling accomplished, on top of world.. well, not really, I don't climb outside... yet!  So, I'm back at it, I've been going to the bouldering gym 5 out of the 7 days of the week. I should probably slow down. But, I am having so much fun. I love, defeating fears and what my mind thinks are my physical limitations. I wonder if it's similar to a runner's high? I wouldn't know, I hate running. Plus my knee swells up like a balloon when I try running, so... I take that as a sign that I just wasn't born to run, which is TOTALLY ok with me! I'm a climber, It's more than just a pure strength thing, it's a puzzle thing. But more than that, I think it might actually be my destresser! I've said for years now, that I do not know how to relax. It drives me crazy...