Bad moods

Well, I've been in a pretty crappy mood lately. I've been beating myself up about my appearance as well as many other qualities about my life. Perhaps, its just my monthly mood swing, or maybe I'm just really moody for no damn reason. But it's my own fault, I give up too easily, and I tend to let myself stay in a funk and complain about it, wishing my circumstances will change for the better overnight #pipedream (there you go, all you hashtag hating readers).

I went to bed self-loathing and I woke up the same way (I also discovered that writing a blog at midnight in the midst of self loathing, is a very bad idea, I spared you the post, be thankful).  I don't like myself when I'm moody, and I'm quite sure the people around me don't either. Sorry guys, I'm not doing it on purpose. However, half way through the day, I decided my outlook needed to change. I have to stop looking at what I wish I had and make it, look at what I can have. I can work out and enjoy it, I can do more hobbies that I enjoy, and I can start focusing on the positives, and work towards them even more.

Right now, the biggest hurdle is my appearance. Well, I'm a girl, of course it's going to be the thing I hyper focus on. But, I can change that. I can choose to stop listening to that Debbie-downer voice in my head and leap for my success. I can surround myself with those who care enough to encourage me, and focus on the word and my faith to build me up. I'm done fearing failure!

I know I'll try to slip back into my mind numbing, spiral of disaster mindset, please don't let me, let myself fall! I can do this and so can you!

 "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." - Romans 12:2

 "For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." - 2 Timothy 1:7

 "The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him." - Psalm 28:7

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