My Curious Existence

I've just gotten back into rock climbing. I use to climb all of the time, it was great! I love the feeling of conquering a route. Feeling the strength and fatigue in my hands and arms. Feeling accomplished, on top of world.. well, not really, I don't climb outside... yet!  So, I'm back at it, I've been going to the bouldering gym 5 out of the 7 days of the week. I should probably slow down. But, I am having so much fun. I love, defeating fears and what my mind thinks are my physical limitations. I wonder if it's similar to a runner's high? I wouldn't know, I hate running. Plus my knee swells up like a balloon when I try running, so... I take that as a sign that I just wasn't born to run, which is TOTALLY ok with me! I'm a climber, It's more than just a pure strength thing, it's a puzzle thing. But more than that, I think it might actually be my destresser! I've said for years now, that I do not know how to relax. It drives me crazy...

2016 has already started with changes, but, I couldn't have expected any less, really! My job has moved from a very temporary position to now permanent! Let's just take a moment and take a HUGE sigh of relief ***SIGH!***  The second major change being, I've gotten glasses. Is it weird that I'm actually excited about this?? But I'm also very apprehensive, as, well, it's something different affecting my vision, granted my prescription, if very small, but still necessary to get them. Getting glasses in 2016 is very different from needing glasses say, back in the 80's or such, when styles we're very limited and the label NERD was a bad thing. Heck, I am a nerd, I wear the title with much pride. I'm looking forward to picking out a pair of glasses with color and Character to go with my purple hair, gauged ears and punk like personality. Other changes in my life, are really just continuations of previous events. The beginning of our 5th month of marria...

It's hard to believe, that it was exactly a year ago, since my last blog post. I remember starting this thing with such viger and high hopes of writing everyday. But, as most things, life got in the way and my heart started to harden as I drove along. Almost a year ago, my summer was filled with camping, friends, laughter and love. Life was great, my faith was high and I appreciated everything that came my way. Then, some hard lefts hit the path. My boyfriend started to go blind, quite literally and it was terrifying. There were several months we both faced the unknown. would he go completely blind? Could they reverse the problems caused by his diabetes? Was surgery even an option? What would life look like if he did go blind? Would I stay or run? I watched the man I love struggle with his own mortality, the realization of his own limitations, and coming to terms with his circumstance. He even went as far as to give me several opportunities to leave the relationship, claiming i...

The church, as a believer I define it as the people. Not a building, a place, or a tangible object. Instead, I define church as community, my friends, my relationships, the strength I build in my faith in Christ. The bible says, "where two or three are gathered in my name, there I AM with them." - Matthew 18:20 The church doesn't and shouldn't end with a physical building. But, instead to spread out and be so much more than that. I am the church, you are the church, we are the church. We are vessels of Gods, love and Grace. To reach out and share. Our faith shouldn't end as we walk out of the doors, but extend to every part of our lives. Those who encounter us, should see a change, something different than what is apart of the rest of the world. I realize, I'm speaking something that has probably been drilled into your skulls for what seems like a thousand times over. But, curiosity got the best of me and I decided to Google "The Church." The search ...

Well, I think it's time to go through a list of lesser known facts about me and perhaps some more obvious facts. Perhaps, this will all boil down to a self reflection. Who knows? This is the internet after all, by the end of it, a rumor could be started that I'm dating a french model. But, let's just see what happens, shall we? 1. My birthstone is Amethyst, but I can't pronounce that word, so we'll just say purple, yes purple will work. 2. I play with my hair when I think, and if I ever get patient enough to grow it out, I'll actually chew on while zoning out. NOT eat it mind you, but just chew on it. 3. I always wanted to be one of the boys growing up. They had cooler toys and I grew up with my cousins, also, mostly boys. That could be why I enjoy sparing and kicking butt. 4. My favorite ice cream is Cookies n Cream, however, the cookies n cream candy bar is totally disgusting and I'll eat it, only if forced. 5. I use to hate pink, until a few years a...

Well, I've been in a pretty crappy mood lately. I've been beating myself up about my appearance as well as many other qualities about my life. Perhaps, its just my monthly mood swing, or maybe I'm just really moody for no damn reason. But it's my own fault, I give up too easily, and I tend to let myself stay in a funk and complain about it, wishing my circumstances will change for the better overnight #pipedream (there you go, all you hashtag hating readers). I went to bed self-loathing and I woke up the same way (I also discovered that writing a blog at midnight in the midst of self loathing, is a very bad idea, I spared you the post, be thankful).  I don't like myself when I'm moody, and I'm quite sure the people around me don't either. Sorry guys, I'm not doing it on purpose. However, half way through the day, I decided my outlook needed to change. I have to stop looking at what I wish I had and make it, look at what I can have. I can work out a...