Growing Up!

Remember those times we were little? It seemed like being an adult was so cool. Adults could stay up as late as they wanted, eat or drink whenever they felt like it, and it didn't seem like anyone could tell them what to do! Right? WRONG!!!

What a pipe dream that was! Where's my life of mystery, intrigue, and adventure?? And why don't I buy more boxes of Cap'n Crunch?

More often than not, I find myself wishing I was a kid again, I know crazy!!! But, I do enjoy being an adult, except for, now I need to have plans for the future, goals, and some sort of an assemblance of an idea on what I'm doing. Most the time I feel like I'm wandering through space, taking baby steps to see if I'll fall through the floor.

It was easy, my goals in life at 10 were, Get a super cool Sony Walkman, play with my favorite Lego sets, and someday, way off in the future, go to college. What for? who cares!!!

But, my attitude about things have changed. I've gone to college, stumbled around until I found a major and realized, I'll never stop learning. I might have cried a little at that thought. I've grown quite a bit since then and just because I haven't got it all figured out doesn't mean the end is near. It also doesn't mean gone are the days of Lego building and candy! I still get to enjoy my wonder years as it were. I mean, I'm an adult, that's what I lived for.

My new goals, freelance a bit, have a family, get a cool job that will allow me the freedom to be with my family and be extra income instead of sole dependent income. I've come to realize, I can't do it on my own. I'd like to, but I can't. Currently, I'm a in a tight spot, but I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel (Hopefully). It's going to take a lot of hard work as well as faith, support from my family, friends, and the love and spiritual support from those closet to me. Fortunately, I've surrounded my self with great people and a wonderful boyfriend to help encourage me and make it happen.

So here's to making the small changes and stepping out in faith. Step one: Begin Freelancing and marketing myself as a photographer/designer for hire.

Until the next time, Where's my Cap'n Crunch?

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