Musings

Copyright: Kara Brooks (that's my actual bike)
Everyday, I get up dreading the work day ahead. I'm one of those people living for the weekend. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't need to get up at 5:30 am. However, that is my choice since I refuse to move closer to work and about an hours drive away from my friends, family, and boyfriend. I'm a homebody no getting around it. I love my current city, it's just right for me. Though, I dream of the days when I can work closer to home and have the freedom to stroll to a local coffee shop, crack open the laptop, and start my day there. I especially love the way my city looks in early fall. The trees have turned a lovely shade of golden orange and yellow, with sparks of green life burst here and there, it's picturesque!

Truth is, I dream of freedom. I kind of romanticize the idea of the hipster life. Perhaps, I don't fully understand what a hipster is? From what I've seen, it looks cool! I'd love to live close enough to work, that a simple bike ride would suffice (I'd take a white scooter too). I could wear my skinny jeans and converse with my layered plaid and brown puff vest. My laptop would sit protected in my cool suede bag and my awesome camera on a strap around my neck. I'd be surrounded by great people, freelance work wouldn't be a problem to obtain and confidence would literally be dripping from me. 

You see, I'm not the kind of person that wishes I never had to work, rather, I'd like to have the conditions listed above. Where fear didn't rule my life, that I wouldn't allow myself the false luxury of getting comfortable in the rut I've seem to have adopted. It's one of those situations, where I know exactly what needs to happen to allow all of this to take place. But, for some reason, I haven't gotten my lazy butt off the couch to do it. 

Maybe writing this all down, is just what I need to get that kick in the pants! For now, I'll appreciate everyday I have. I'm blessed to even be working, especially since I was hired a few months after graduating. I've always been provided for in some way or fashion and I know I didn't do it on my own. God has blessed me more than I deserve, not sure why, I've never done anything special, but I guess that doesn't matter. 

I'll get my dream job or situation soon enough, right now, I think I'm still working out the kinks. There's a lot to learn and grow from. So for now, that's what I'll do, I will work hard to continually to become a better, employee, friend, and person. 

I'll make a plan! 

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